There is nothing wrong about giving yourself a break. Lately, I\u2019ve been thinking that we shouldn\u2019t get angry with ourselves after realising we\u2019ve spent time without apparently getting profit out of it.<\/p>\n
Five minutes ago, I was forcing myself to \u201cone last mechanics past paper before dinner\u201d, while I was having a crazy headache.<\/p>\n
After attempting the first question and failing greatly I told myself that this didn\u2019t make any sense. It was evident that I could not concentrate anymore and that I should stop studying.<\/p>\n
I now lay down in bed and stare at the window. It is 8 pm and it is still bright. I feel a second of peace between the storm, the storm of the exam period.<\/p>\n
Without even realising, I find myself thinking about everything that has made me be in this room today. I reach the conclusion that I have not appreciated enough all the work I\u2019ve put into allowing this to be my reality.<\/p>\n
I am hard with myself, demanding. But still, not as proud as I should be. And I believe I\u2019m not the only student here at Imperial feeling the same, but as I cannot have the certainty of this feeling being shared by others, I will just talk about me.<\/p>\n
I am aware that this can be a blog post that may not be of general interest, but I believe it can help someone with the same struggles as me. After all, this space on the internet is a corner for me to express myself, however, I want to. And although exposing oneself personally out there it\u2019s scary, I think it\u2019s worth it if it can help at least one person.<\/p>\n
Being someone with a rather low self-esteem, studying at a top university like this is not the easiest. Being at Imperial can be difficult, but it can also be a therapy of shock for improvement.<\/p>\n
In the 8 months I\u2019ve been here I\u2019ve been taught so many lessons, both academic and about life.<\/p>\n
Academically, I\u2019ve realised that learning is not a matter of getting a 100% in an exam, but a matter of fighting for understanding. I\u2019ve come up with the conclusion that getting a degree in Aeronautical engineering will not imply that I can build a plane by myself, but that I will have the capability and resources to make it happen somehow.<\/p>\n
Something else I\u2019ve learnt during my time here is to value help, both giving and receiving. It has been a great discovery, to know how to ask for help when needed, and not only in the academics.<\/p>\n
Lastly, I\u2019ve understood the value of real friends, those who stay there regardless of the distance, or those who become an essential piece in your life in less than a year.<\/p>\n
In conclusion, the message I want to bring across is that it is worth. The decisions taken are worth, regardless of the output. If they go to plan, great. If not, you will still get a life lesson. In my case, I have chosen to study here, at a place filled with some of the brightest minds out there. I know it\u2019s going to be a tough 4-year-journey. But I do not regret sending my application back in January of last year.<\/p>\n
If in doubt, go ahead. After all, you will only lament those decisions not taken because of fear.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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